Who do you confide in or how do you know who to confide in?

Just a random question has come to mind and some other random thoughts.

Now you have to know me well for what I am about to share. I used to be this really shy quiet kid growing up. Sadly my peers thought that I was a stuck up snob, that I thought that I was better than everyone else. However, in reality I was sooo shy that I didn't know how to start off a conversation. I was terrible for it, I would stand off in the corner hoping and praying that someone would come along and try to be my friend. I had a few friends and of course all of my cousins were my best of friends. I had this one friend that changed my life forever. I will just call her S. We were in grade 4 together and we hit it off almost right away and we were inseparable for the longest time. I actually saw her a few months ago and we had coffee together. We used to talk about everything together, and we experienced the starting of womanhood together. Our friendship altered over the years, including years of us losing touch with each other. I confided many things with S and I'd like to think the same with me. However, what is it that causes us to hold back from so many people? Is it fear? Or is it just the unknown of how they will react. Some things just seem to strange and weird for us to talk about. I mean I have heard of some people talking about these things. Like the experience of change, we are at first little beautiful babies and we grow into these most adorable little children and then all of a sudden we hit an awkward stage and we don't know what is happening to us. Well we do if we have loving family who talk to us about these things, but how do we truly express how we feel as we go through this process.

Now I'm a Christian as you probably already know through previous posts or from knowing the life that I live, but there are things that happen in our every day life that is never talked about. Like dreams for instance, everyone dreams, but very few people actually talk about them even fewer trying to understand why they dreamed that specific dream. I for one had a wonderful dream and when I awoke I was very disappointed that it wasn't real. It seemed so real that I was almost shocked that it wasn't real.

Even further thinking, when and how is a good time to express feelings you might have for an individual if you are single and find a likely towards someone? I don't even mean expressing it to "the" person, but even your friends or family...what if "the" person doesn't feel the same way etc...oh how my mind wanders.

Would love your input on this one my dear readers...