Teary eyed

This place I am in has been a long road, much longer than I anticipated. I thought that it would be two weeks max before I found something and it was four weeks instead. I had no money saved really, and I took a huge leap of faith knowing at the time that God had my back and that he opened the door for me to do it. I feel sooo weak in my faith right now as I know I can't take care of my own bills this month. I know there are people thinking that I shouldn't have done what I did. That it was a stupid move without having something falling into place right afterwards. Yet a month ago I knew in my heart of hearts that he would take care of everything. Now a month later when I'm looking at the bills coming in and what my account holds I know I can't do it. I'm scared and almost desperate now. Through a series of different things the tears have finally broken through and it's not an easy task to stop now. I just don't know what else to do besides and pray continue searching for a job that would add to my new job that I started just yesterday. I feel like a mess and I don't know how to clean it up right now. I realize that I'm really showing my vulnerability right now, but it's hard not to when I feel this broken...Oh Lord please give me that peace back.