30!

I turned 30 today and was treated real special. My cousin invited me to her place for some lunch so I played with her baby and stuff. My mom told me to take my time etc. So I called my mom to see if the kids were ready for me and stuff so I could come home. Well everyone was in on things for me. my aunt came to meet me at my cousins to walk with me back home for her "walk", trying to get me to walk slowly and walking a different way and everything. Then I came home and saw a big sign on the front lawn that the children coloured it, walked inside and it smelled good, like sweet and sour meatballs. Here I thought that they were taking me to Montana's. Walk into the kitchen and there was a table set up with food and a cake on the table and everything. Another on of my aunts was in the play room with the children. Then my cousin came in with her three children and my sister as she went to pick her up and then they told me that I walk too fast. haha. This is the cousin whose house I was just at. My friend Niki was there with her hubby and of course the girls. My dad came late unfortunately with his fiance Felica. We had a great time overall, just chilling out and having some fun and talking. T'was a pleasant day. No Montana's with just my parents, other people were involved on my turning of three decades and I really enjoyed it.

As for turning 30, well I have to say that I have not reached anything that I aspired to be by this time in my life. Like my career choice for example (I was planning on being an interior designer) and figured my schooling would be over by now...one more year. I had hoped to be married by 23 with children to follow within the next year...no prospects as of yet, but I do have 6 very important children in my life. Hopefully they all know it...I believe that 4 of them are sure as I see them most often. I have been dealing with how I feel about turning 30 for a few weeks and to be honest it feels sort of depressing because I did not achieve anything that "I planned" by this time. However I have also been thinking that I was also not in tune with what God wanted from me at that point. I am also not the same person that I was at 23 when I had hoped to be married. I have grown and matured in many ways since then. I almost have my degree, which will be acquired before I am 31. Where were these depressing thoughts coming from? I would say from the world, where people in the world put on the pressures to be someone within 5 years after high school. Where people marry their high school sweetheart or their first love from college or unversity. I am where God wants me to be. I have Tabetha and some others to thank for reminding me of that and helping me to get my thinking straight.

Blessings,

Christina