Oh the AGONY of it all

I hurt myself! I am not sure how, but I put my shoulder out something fierce, it hurts no matter what I do with it. Just standing there with in beside me causes it to throb. I do not like it, it took my twice as long to dress and of course it had to be cold this morning requiring me to put on more layers. I put on a t-shirt, then a zip up hoody, then a vest. I cautiously put my left arm into my sleeve, trying hard not to hurt it more. That was quite the task, especially when the vest was getting stuck on the bulkiness of my sweater. Then came the backpack...placing it on my bed I gave enough room for me to sit on the bed, so I could slide my left arm through the strap. then slip my right arm through. SUCCESS...It only took me five minutes! So I headed out the door to walk twenty minutes to the bus stop...at the bus stop the thought runs through my head ok, so the bus is usually full, no sitting by yourself, if you are lucky enough to sit. So I see the crowd and think how is this going to work? I decide that standing would be best because then I wouldn't have to take my backpack off, causing myself more pain. So I stood on the bus...hmm pain anyway. I couldn't hold on with my left hand so everything was up to my right hand. A sudden jerk of the bus...shooting pain. I couldn't get around it no matter what I did. So I grinned and bore the pain. Get into my classroom and go to a table backwards depositing my bag ever so carefully to refrain from experiencing pain...so much for that. Shooting pain again.

I tell this story, because it made me think of how weak I was today. I am weak, but Christ has strengthened me. I am weak and chose to find my strength in God today to make it through without crying.

After class, one of the program directors came to my aid, she held up my backpack and I just slid my arms through, that was a lot easier than stooping to the level of my backpack on the table. I did not ask and I am very independant and find it very difficult to ask for help. I blame my mom for encouraging this...I am too far the one way rather than down the middle. Anyway...it was great to know that someone else was also there to back me up when I was weak.