I am a soft at heart kind of person. I always have been, teachers, friends and even colleagues always comment on my expressive faces. Wondering what it is that I am thinking, but never any doubt what I am thinking. Most of my closest family and friends can read right through me. They know when something is up, within 30 seconds of being around me. Sometimes this is a blessing, other times it is so annoying. Then there are the odd time when nothing is wrong, but it appears to be. Such is my expressional face haha.
Today I had my second send off party and I was holding strong. I thought that I would have to give a speech, but due to the fact that is became a drop in kind of thing I did wind up doing that. However, if it had been different, I probably would have cried, maybe even babbled through some tougher tears.
Tonight was a different story, there was over a dozen cards with lovely things written in them. Some wishing me all the best, others saying they would miss me, still others affirming the Call. I had planned to write thank you notes tonight to go give with them, but instead I found myself reflecting, giving thanks to God and even shedding some needed tears.
For dinner I went to "The Works" with one of my best friends and her hubby. This was the last time that we knew that we would see each other, before my first term overseas would start. We expressed to one another that we would miss one another. I did not shed any tears with her (though my eyes did well up once while talking about God's blessing). I did do this later, I will miss people here without a doubt!
I am also very excited to finally be going to the mission field after working towards this for so many years. I'm scared, because well let's face it...it's a really big change! Add sad to see everyone stay here is another emotion. So with lots of emotions playing their toll on this little body of mine I feel the inner toiling inside my body.
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