The Stress Factor

So for several weeks I have felt ill and have had no appetite. I felt like or worried that I would be sick for quite some time. I would worry and fret that something was coming on even when some else mentioned that they were not feeling well. Yet, when I didn't work or was in the company of good people I felt fine and wasn't worrying about anything. I started thinking that perhaps I have anxiety or stress issues as there are many things going on in my life. Most of these feelings came with work. I tried very hard over the last two months to change my attitude and actions at or towards working at Suzy Shier...thankful that the Lord got a hold of my heart which caused that to change.

I believe that even though I was capable of being in the position I was/am in that I was still worried with something going wrong and feeling a bunch of different pressures for so long and none of them really worth being that stressed over. Things like what if the tills don't balance, what if a get a nasty customer, what if I become ill and cannot find a replacement. Even though these are not that common (well the nasty/mean customer happens at least once a day) I still worry about it. Then there is the expectations of having everything run smoothly and getting tasks completed. When I'm running the store for a shift I need to make sure that my part-timer completes her task and that I complete mine and that the store looks nice and clean. Leave any notes about anything important that has happened and facing the facts that I might upset my part-timers for making them to a task to completion...some times all these are beyond stressful.

Now that I'm moving onto another job until future endeavors come to be my stress level has dropped a great deal and I have had an appetite since the day after I told my manager that I was leaving and moving on to another job. Giving my notice was a hard thing for me to do because I know what kind of strain that was about to put on my manager. I was a full time employee who had keys and now she has to work with only 3 key holders and one of them can only work evenings after school and weekends as she is still in school. That really puts a challenge in for them. Despite how many people told me not to worry about it I still did. So I will say that I am very thankful for my dear friend Charlie for praying for me right before going in. God went before me and He made that task of telling her sooo much easier than I expected. She truly seemed to understand.

I also rarely stayed up pasted 11 for the fear that I was becoming ill, because of the pain and discomfort in my stomach. It is now well past 1 am and I'm about to head to bed because I'm really tired. This makes me feel sooo good! It truly is amazing how much stress can affect your life and how you feel. Here's for many more days ahead.