I don't like having my faults pointed out most of the time, just like many others don't. However, when it involves my character and behaviour that should be directing those around me to Christ, I prefer it. I don't like it when others see this and it frustrates me to no end of how I can be.
I am often easily swayed in my moods and there are times when I am trying to inwardly tackle them on my own along with God's prompting, then there are times when people around me point them out when I'm oblivious to them. The latter one happened to me this past week. "Christina, I have heard that you are complaining a lot." I had to think about how I was complaining and to whom I was stating these complaints to. Not that it mattered entirely other than the fact that I was indeed complaining about something. After talking a fair bit with this individual about some of the things I was complaining about I realized how awful I started to feel. I didn't intend to cause harm or change the way a person felt about being around me. Granted I have faced a lot of things over the last while that might have my heart tuned into those things instead of in things above.
God hates grumbling, murmurers and complaining, it shows that we are discontent. I wholeheartedly agree with this too, and yet there I was complaining and I have sooooo much to be thankful for. God has done amazing things in my life this year ago, let alone all the years prior.
I am baffled and amazed at how aware I was of all my sinfulness this past week after having this area pointed out to me. God sure has a way of getting my attention. I cannot believe how awful and dirty a person can feel once they see this in themselves. I sure felt this way and have sought forgiveness from my creator God.
Have you ever felt like this?
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