Technology makes me sick!

There have been many advances in technology especially in the last ten years. It is like it is taking leaps and bounds. It sickens me to think that there are people who are almost literally glued to their cell phones, iPads and other items, you can't go for a walk, a short bus ride or even out for coffee without seeing someone pull out their phone to see if they missed any text messages. Now I know I'm not one to talk, but I can at least leave the house without my phone and be fine with that unless of course I lock my keys in the house...that's another story already written here. Anyway I also know that there have been many rants about this particular subject.

Now onto social medias like Facebook...There have been many drama situations that have arisen within Facebook walls over the years that I have been on Facebook. Some of them have been funny misunderstanding, but others have been down right hurtful and frustrating. This whole area has been a struggle for me and I'm sure as I talk about this a bit more you'll understand entirely. Connecting through Facebook or Text messages can be a struggle, though a perk for those you cannot see right away and to quickly get a response is nice. However, lately even including a conversation today I have totally misunderstood the context in which the person was talking to me. I couldn't hear the tone in their voice, nor could I see the expression on their face. It frustrates me because I get upset or defensive and I think that I have the right to, until that person says "Uh Christina, that's not how I meant it." However, that is how it is being perceived when I read what was written. Another thing is sometimes it is explained in how they meant it, but then you wonder if they are just covering because they made you upset. Now when it comes to my closest friends and family I hope that is not the case, but I'm sure that it is every once in a while. These are the times that I want to leave Facebook again and just cut myself off, but these services are so great at the same time it makes it a challenge.

What are some of your thoughts on this?

Awareness of my Sinfulness

I don't like having my faults pointed out most of the time, just like many others don't. However, when it involves my character and behaviour that should be directing those around me to Christ, I prefer it. I don't like it when others see this and it frustrates me to no end of how I can be.

I am often easily swayed in my moods and there are times when I am trying to inwardly tackle them on my own along with God's prompting, then there are times when people around me point them out when I'm oblivious to them. The latter one happened to me this past week. "Christina, I have heard that you are complaining a lot." I had to think about how I was complaining and to whom I was stating these complaints to. Not that it mattered entirely other than the fact that I was indeed complaining about something. After talking a fair bit with this individual about some of the things I was complaining about I realized how awful I started to feel. I didn't intend to cause harm or change the way a person felt about being around me. Granted I have faced a lot of things over the last while that might have my heart tuned into those things instead of in things above.

God hates grumbling, murmurers and complaining, it shows that we are discontent. I wholeheartedly agree with this too, and yet there I was complaining and I have sooooo much to be thankful for. God has done amazing things in my life this year ago, let alone all the years prior.

I am baffled and amazed at how aware I was of all my sinfulness this past week after having this area pointed out to me. God sure has a way of getting my attention. I cannot believe how awful and dirty a person can feel once they see this in themselves. I sure felt this way and have sought forgiveness from my creator God.


Have you ever felt like this?