I give you the pen God

I am writing this blog as a part of my devotional time this morning. I had given up on the idea/dream of becoming a wife last year for almost a year, until one of my best friends spoke to me about this area. I believe that God used her to catch my attention that he does have this in his plan for my life. We were talking about marriage as she is getting married this year. I said something along the lines of not getting married and all she was was "Christina, I know you will get married. I just know it. I know in my heart of hearts that you will get married. I can't explain how I know, I just know!" It was so profound that I actually didn't know what to say in response haha.

Over a year and a half ago I made a journal from scratch that was designed with the potential husband in mind. I never wrote in it until this year. This journal is something that I plan to give him the night before or day we get married. This journal will be filled with "love letters" for his eyes only. However, it will be filled with prayers for him. Along with hopes and dreams for as as well as what I believe will be his character traits etc. I had in mind to do this in my early twenties, but those were like true journal entries. All of what I did that day, well that can be boring stuff and after reading through many of those I felt that it wasn't what I really wanted to give this man of my dreams.

When I was in my late teens early twenties there was a couple who started publishing books and I became enamoured through their work. You may recognize their names, Eric and Leslie Ludy. I have decided to pick up one of the first two books to read once again with my devotionals. The first couple of chapters they (they take turns writing chapters) talked about giving God the pen to write their love stories. After reading those chapters I closed off in prayer and literally threw up a pen to God to allow him access to this area of my life again. Not that I ever truly closed it off, but that I had given up for a while and want to allow him to be able to do as He wishes with my life.

And so He writes...