Family Vs. Friends

I value my family to smithereens. Granted my family is not perfect by any means, but they do mean the world to me. I enjoy spending time with them, being goofy and being relaxed with them for the most part. We all have our quirks right? haha you might get where my thoughts are. I know that no matter what they will be there in a heart beat, my parents have even come up here more often this year and I have loved going out on the town with them. We usually share a meal and then go on a little adventure. I was even "surprised" with having my sister waiting at a restaurant one time for us. It was special, even if the boys thought that a carnival was more important than seeing their auntie (who can blame them though, I would do the same haha).

I have been thinking a lot lately about who my true friends are. Those are the ones who try to keep in contact, I feel that I do my fair share of trying to get together with people. I feel pretty used by some of those people I considered friends truth be told, now that their other friends are back forget about Christina I want to hang with them kind of mentality. Or the feelings of you are only good enough to talk to if you are dressed well, have make up on, and did your hair. Some of these people have "preached" that they want people to be authentic in their Christian faith, but I don't see that when this comes through. They they are talking about being authentic in their faith yet fail at their friendship showing "Authenticity". Kind of contradictory or maybe even hipocritical. This is how I have felt about a few people who have referred to me being a friend of theirs. If I was truly their friend they would hang out with me even if I was wearing a "hoodie" or if more of their friends were around. Granted I have many other friends that do not fall into these thoughts. I spent the night with one of these wonderful ladies last night, we stayed up til 3 am talking about things. I am seeing one tomorrow, one is getting married on Saturday, one is kind of far away so I just might not see her until Spring. Next Saturday one of them is coming up to visit me.

If you are one of the other "friends" that fit into my feelings of dismay or are just not sure if you fit there or not talk to me and we can talk through it. You may not have realized my thoughts or that you are one of those people, and frankly I don't really want to call you up just to set up a time to finally meet up and tell you how I feel. This kind of needs to be under your own conviction I think. There is a time and a place to walk through these things, one of my friends and I did go through this as it just came up. We faced the music and walked away with a better understanding of one another and now we know what we both want and need from one another. You know who you are too. I love you all though so don't think that there is any hating going on here. Just expressing my feelings in a "beat around the bush" kind of way.