One year ago...

One year ago to the day I was treated like a queen. Spoiled by cinnamon buns for breakfast, and a "Hug" placed in my hands, when their hand was placed in mine. One of my best friends got engaged. It was a wonderful day were my friends and I shared much happiness together by sharing a meal together to celebrate the engagement of our mutual friends Jenn and Andy. I could cherish this day forever, however God had a change of plans in mind that would happen within the next two days and then the rest of the week. I did not see this coming for far off, but as soon as it started I knew that something that I did not want to happen was going to happen. God knows this too. I was no longer a piece of this young man's life, God had a different plan. I know that a while back I wrote that my heart is no longer his. However, this day and this week will prove to be a bit tough to work through as I know how hard it was one year ago. I will seek God daily to have me be strong through it and not to focus on the past but to focus on what is to come. He knows my desires and at times I believe that they are in tune with his desires, but the Lord only knows if that is the truth of the matter. God help me to look ahead instead of what is behind. For I fear that I may trip myself up and lose focus for what you have in store for me. I hate to be alone and I have so much love to give. I thank you Lord that you have placed so many people in my life that I can love with the love that you have filled me with. The Lord be my guide and my fortress that I run to in times like these.