It has been a while since I wrote a blog for sure. A lot has happened since then and I will briefly recap and I mean it lol. I did graduate in April with family and friends cheering me on so to speak. I took two weeks vacation, one week in Ohio to visit the missionary family I worked with in the CZR. Then the following week in Calgary. After I came back my manager talked to me about a possible job opportunity. Though after a great deal of thinking and praying I believe that I will decline. I will be looking for full-time work after next week as this week coming is a forty hour work week. My plan and hope is that I may find a full-time day job and be able to keep my part-time job at Suzy Shier so that I can pay off my student loans faster.
Since my student loans were mentioned I will now go into the title for this blog. Seeing how I know that it will be a while before I will be able to start the whole application process for the mission field. I have a longing within me. I mean I have felt this way for a long time, but now that I am done school I want it even more now. I am currently living in a bedroom, which is my living space. I can branch out to the rest of the house, but when you live in a bungalow with a couple it is um confining. There is nothing wrong with them and I will say that over and over again because they have been awesome to me. However, when I am a person who loves to have people over, to cook and to bake this situation is literally draining the life out of me. It is not that I can't have people over it's that I don't want to inconvience my landlord's. I don't want them to feel like I am invading their personal space in their house/home. I have a longing to have a place I can call home and feel the sentiments that come with that word. I long to have a kitchen of my own to experiment in my cooking and try new baking recipes. I long for a couch to sit on with some friends drinking a tea that I made in my tea pot. I long to see what is in those boxes that haven't been opened in two years or more. I know my budget is tight and that this might be a foolish thing to think about because I should be saving all the money I can to put towards those loans. I cannot help but feel this way, as I know it can be a while. I'm hoping to be working close to 60 hours a week in the future, so with that I should be able to fork out a bit more to live like I have life in me. My soul aches for this almost daily. Lord help me to be oh so patient during this time and to be able to see your hand of provision and your guidance through it all.
Since my student loans were mentioned I will now go into the title for this blog. Seeing how I know that it will be a while before I will be able to start the whole application process for the mission field. I have a longing within me. I mean I have felt this way for a long time, but now that I am done school I want it even more now. I am currently living in a bedroom, which is my living space. I can branch out to the rest of the house, but when you live in a bungalow with a couple it is um confining. There is nothing wrong with them and I will say that over and over again because they have been awesome to me. However, when I am a person who loves to have people over, to cook and to bake this situation is literally draining the life out of me. It is not that I can't have people over it's that I don't want to inconvience my landlord's. I don't want them to feel like I am invading their personal space in their house/home. I have a longing to have a place I can call home and feel the sentiments that come with that word. I long to have a kitchen of my own to experiment in my cooking and try new baking recipes. I long for a couch to sit on with some friends drinking a tea that I made in my tea pot. I long to see what is in those boxes that haven't been opened in two years or more. I know my budget is tight and that this might be a foolish thing to think about because I should be saving all the money I can to put towards those loans. I cannot help but feel this way, as I know it can be a while. I'm hoping to be working close to 60 hours a week in the future, so with that I should be able to fork out a bit more to live like I have life in me. My soul aches for this almost daily. Lord help me to be oh so patient during this time and to be able to see your hand of provision and your guidance through it all.
